When the Pain Starts
When the Pain Starts It starts slowly, leading all the way up to your heart. It hits hard, everything starts to hurt and that pain becomes a sword against your will. It is a confusing feeling and hard to explain. It then spreads to your brain decomposing your thoughts and feelings. The bigger picture becomes blurry, you confuse what is good and bad and what is best. The big picture turns from gold to dust. You are paralyzed in fear of what you are feeling and how it has taken over you. You want to scream, you want someone to come to help you. But you look around, in your lonely dark corner and see no one. You stay in that dark corner, afraid and hurt...the pain haunts you inside and out. You are angry at the world and things it has done to you and continues to do to you. That anger haunts you and takes over, you only see what hurts inside of you rather than what helps. You want to take revenge on that anger, hurt the people that d