When the Pain Starts

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                                  When the Pain Starts 


 It starts slowly, leading all the way up to your heart. It hits hard, everything starts to hurt and that pain becomes a sword against your will. It is a confusing feeling and hard to explain. It then spreads to your brain decomposing your thoughts and feelings. The bigger picture becomes blurry, you confuse what is good and bad and what is best. 
   
 The big picture turns from gold to dust. You are paralyzed in fear of what you are feeling and how it has taken over you. You want to scream, you want someone to come to help you. But you look around, in your lonely dark corner and see no one. You stay in that dark corner, afraid and hurt...the pain haunts you inside and out. You are angry at the world and things it has done to you and continues to do to you.

That anger haunts you and takes over, you only see what hurts inside of you rather than what helps. You want to take revenge on that anger, hurt the people that did you wrong. Turn that anger into passion, learn to let go. It is okay, you will be okay. Take it one day at a time. That little anger inside can grow and die out. Let that anger die out, don't let it be a weed on your soul. 

I know you may be hurting right now, and that is okay. But what you do with that hurt is what may be what's not okay. I know it is hard to pick yourself up time after time, and you may feel like what's the point? I don't know, maybe your cat or dog or your favorite ice cream you just got? I can't convince you to do anything, maybe persuade you...but you got to be the one to do that for yourself. 

I know right...myself? Why can't my best friend or my mom do that? Because you got to be the one to realize your worth, who you are, and what you want. I know you be hurting right now. But is that pain still going to last in a month? I know it is hard to pick yourself up, time after time and feel like what is the point. But the point is to found out why you are here, and the process may hurt, but it will be better in time. Trust yourself, learn that you can get out of the dark hole. 


  
  

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